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Thursday, December 22, 2005
Fourteen Time
After writing what i wrote yesterday, and looking at it today, i was like "Huh! I wrote those things down!" I cant believe I wrote it down, but the truth is that i have admitted to alot of things. Yup! I cant take back what i have wrote, i have to bear any consequences that is to befall on me. I think that my mind was so NUMB yesterday night, I did not realise that I was exposing my deeper thoughts. But I was happy that I did not review anything from my DEEPEST thoughts. Haha!! My mind have many layers! The deepest one will never fall! :P
Ah Leow was reading it, and gave me some comment as a friend(OLD OLD friend). He told me to not beat around the bush, be straight forward. To directly ask the girl whether we share the same feel anot. if we dont share, then can be friend or good friend. If share, then good for us la.
I have to agree to some extent. But me being a someone who think and think and think, have a difficulty executing it. Well! I just have to spent more time planning anything that i want. Hard on my brain cells, but it directly affect my next 1.5 yrs in poly.
Chen yie also talk abit with me, did not know she got one more year than me. Wahaha! Let's compete!! Hehe!! Siao!! I am going bonkers!! Back to chen yie, ok. She is in no hurry to find any partner accord to her lah, BUT, age is catching up on you, dont let time leave too many scars on your face. (Think :P) My depression is getting better, at least I can crack lame jokes now. Not like in the afternoon, i was kind of moody when talking on MSN with jieting. Too bad lah, you talk to me wrong time. Haha!
My good old friend, classmate of 3A/4A Li chween was online around 11+pm. Chatted awhile, talking about her things and my things. Happy that she found herself a bf. Hope she be nice to him(she knows what i mean). Talk to her about my stuff too. She was asking me about the girl that i told her before(maybe 3 months ago) Wei fen. She was asking me whether we were together or not. Then told her no. She ask why. Then i tell her a story about last year.
Wei fen went to National Camp at Ubin last year, during August. Then on the day she book in around 5 or 6pm+, Bra called me. Said that she got injured in some activities, which he wasnt sure. Then he said he heard a girl was kayaking then capsize and hit some rocks below. He wasnt sure if it was weifen. I was really worried at that time, thinking what if something happened to her. I thought for awhile, should I go down to see her anot at CGH, the side of the island. I still decided to go check if she was all right. I makan my dinner quickly then took MRT down to jurong east. Then i got down there and took a cab to CGH as i thought MRT was just too slow. I think reach there about 8pm. I could not go in as she was in A&E, so just waited outside. Saw the red cross ppl who brought her to mainland, then intro myself then ask what happened. If I did not remember wrongly, she was riding on a bicycle, then she fell off the bike. Kana some scratches on the right side of the body. Then when i finally saw her, was so glad that she only have some graze wound here and there. She was not allowed to go back to Ubin, so she had to go back home with her bro and i think her mum also. The next day she called me, but I was working at AMKH. Only saw the miss call during my break, called back but no one at home. Then etc...
Li chween was like saying, "look! you have found yourself the answer!". Then I ??? at her. Then she did some explanation, evaluation. Which made me see something. And she was like asking alot of other question which some I dunno how to explain out. And the best part is, she manage to type out the feel i wanted to say. Amazing. We knew each other so well, maybe not as well but at least we think maybe the same way and same level.
Mah was asking me if i wanted any old pics, so i said ok. Then i saw some real old pic. I think the oldest pic was maybe 2002 St john day, havent seen every pic yet. Then still got the outing plan by us in 2002(sec3). Saw dicky and choon kiat, so SHORT. Haha.. Then Mah sitting on my shoulders to put checkpoints. Still got the mid autumn celebration. Saw my old chinese class, all look so young. Diff from what they look like now esp Iris. For me, I look older in the pics. I think is because I never shave frequently during the sec sch years. Still got the chalet 03 with officers and Senior NCO like us that time, we were drinking so much alcohol, beer. We really look very diff compared to 2 yrs ago. Me not really, i think for Ong change more. More mature looking. I still look the same so cute(AGREE). Waha! Still got alot, still downloading from Mah. Photo bring back fond meomories of the past. That is why i bought a digital camera. I want to capture the moments in everyone's life. Not everyone will understand why i like to take photo, especially when it is taken without the person knowing. The effect is natural, it shows the most inside of you at that instance. Still very happy to see the old pics.
Thanks Ah Leow and Li Chween and maybe Chen yie(haha) for giving me more light. I think my problems are settling. My decision will be made after I see my bestest friend Cliff tommorrow. And the best part, I will not write it down here. Chapter thirteen and fourteen shall be the most unique/explosive/emotional pages of this blog and it shall end here.
ps. Picture paints a thousand word. The best pictures will always be the one filled with the deepest emotion of someone at that time. No cheese, no twist, 100% natural.
and so He speaks
