The Next Big Thing
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the lonely story
Saturday, December 24, 2005
Sixteen Time
Went for a long night walk yesterday night/this morning. Left home around 9.45pm. My destianation was Bangkit. Wanted to go there to see the badminton court that i went 3 yrs plus ago. Walk from my house to Bangkit. Took me around 1.5 hr to reach there. The road there was so hard to walk. The ground was damn slippery, and i was wearing my trailer slipper. SLIPper sia. Kind of regret wearing that slipper, but to bad la. Was already at Keat Hong when i start to regret. Just continue to walk lor. Reach the badminton court around 11.15pm. Sat around there thinking of something. The times when i was there. So young that time. Thought of the things that happened this few days or weeks. So many big things happen after my attachment. BGR thing, SJ thing, friend things,judo thing all = my problems on hand. Just two weeks, so many thought came into my mind. Good one, bad one. Too much shit accumalated on me, need a time to be alone, a night,without any distraction from anyone.
Sat around there for about 30 min. Enjoying the night coolness, the peace and quiet around me. I havent been having any peace and quiet for so many years, really enjoyed that moment. Made me felt real good. I was also thinking of choosing the fin or the paw. Both have its reason for being in my life. Lalala~
After spending 30 min there, walk over to blk 246. Walking around, sitting at the chair there. Thought of the thing my friend told me on MSN on 22 Dec night. Felt so stupid, made me realise my childishness. I always thought that i was quite matured. But not in everything. My PR skill sucks! Said so many things which i should not have said. All the messages, my stupid requests made your life so hard. Singing "Wo De Cuo" as I walk away from blk 246, looking back a few times. The song have become clearer, real. The meaning of the song was felt. The past have come to haunt me, the message on 26 March 2004.
Walked over to Fajar, wanted to go Cliff house but he scared his mother not happy. Then he said wanted to meet me later to talk after his DOTA. So I just walk around. Walk back the same way until Bukit Panjang park. Then sat at the bus stop waiting for him to come down. He reached the bus stop around 1.15am. Talk awhile about the things that happened to me and him. Can say that we concluded something about the fin and paw. He talked about his apple thing also. Then we walk back to Fajar, bought some makan from 7-11 then went his house. We have to SNEAK in. Everyone was asleep at that time 2.30am. Just makan there lor, then he talk about his DOTA tactics blah blah blah.... Haha! Then we left his home around 3.20am. He walked me down to the place i met him just now. Before leaving the bus stop, he kept asking me to take NR3 save time to go home sleep. Aiyo! So exp! Haha.. i only take NR3 when i go orchard to eat and talk with my judokas. Not worth lor because walking got more time to think. Thanks anyway! Before i left, he threw me another challenge. Made me need to think again. Sianz~ Anyway, i am still thinking while writing this. So slowly lor..
Reach home around 4.30am. Faster than i thought. Only 1 hr from BP park- my house. Unbelievable! Same thing. Have to sneak in also. Made as little noise as possible. If my mother know i came home at this time, she will throw knife at me. Haha.. Slept until 10 then wake up. Lack of sleep!
Still have a long day ahead. Especially tonight. No celebration this BLOODY CHRISTmas but something important on.
For the song can go this web, feel it.
http://pop.sing8.com/1/43534.htm
我的错
飞机已离开机场
你选择了前往你的方向 不再迷惘
忘了我们爱的过往 忘了我给你的伤 学会坚强
从前的我不懂你牺牲多大 为我失去朋友不讲
还放弃了所有梦想 觉得没怎样 不会将心比心去想
让你慢慢慢慢失去了希望
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心 还是爱你
我想再重来一次
回到过去弥补你的伤 没那种事
怎么做才能够停止 后悔竟伤你如此 不再放肆
为何总到失去才懂的难过 当你在我身边的时候
总是为我默默守候 都是为我的错
错过这难得的拥有 就让你爱我的心慢慢溜走
能不能够再给我机会好好的爱你
我会仔细的聆听 你对我说的一言一语
我会学会去控制脾气不让你伤心
对你好好的去珍惜 请你相信我的心 还是爱你
ps. Walking alone at night really open your mind up
and so He speaks
