The Next Big Thing
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the lonely story
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
Tenth time
I am sad, confused, mad. I dunno what to say! But I dont like this thing happening again and again. Secondary school already kana. I dont want to let this things happen again. Understand???
http://takey.myweb.hinet.net/miss1.htm
Maybe this web will describe some of my feel. Taken from Chen Yie blogz.. Anyway, I only know Chen yie reads my blog, and maybe WanTing also.. Hehe..
Dunno why this shit always happen to me!! The fact that I am big size and love to bully girls, does not state that I wont be nice to my gf right.. eg. This particular girl that I like, actually for awhile during sec 2 and awhile during 04 Nov/Dec(same girl dunno why also, I crazy la). Dunno can say we are on good terms anot, but I would wait for her to off work whenever she working. That would be about 10.45pm because she works at Yishun and stays near me, so walk her home lah.. I remember is me who recommend her the job de. I think I was very nice to her, even though we had very short time together, because walk home about 10-15min. I think I treated her like a girlfriend, hoping that she is all right, no one bully her at work, is she very tired, got any problems anot etc.. I even made two meals for her.(spagetthi, mixed rice all made by my Tender Loving Care =P) See! So nice! Dunno why we never get together! I think she had no feel.
Below is for me to groan
Why ar? Being big size wrong meh? Sianz~ Why sometimes gals judge guys by the looks not the way the guy treat the gal? I dont think that I am the best guy around, but I am loyal to anything or one. Just see my dedication to SJAB, if you treat me nice, i will treat you nicer even if I get shit all the time. I just dunno why lei.. Is it i have bigger area need longer time to see through me ar. Sianz~ Actually my birdday wish for these 3 yrs have always been the same, hope to find a girlfriend. From my 16-18 birdday same wish, WHY? Because never achieve. Must i keep wishing for the same things until I get to the army. Will i find my missing rib? (Why I say missing rib? See this. http://card3.silversand.net/diy/image/090666.swf ) I am tired of making the same wish. When can i change my wish? Haiz~
My bestest friend windz87(hehe) keep on telling me that girls these days like guys who are not rugged looking aka more man. The younger girls(should be dragon downwards) like guys who are more metrosexual, that means girly like guys as I define. Why ar? What is wrong with guys who are the same man as they were centuries, or thousands of yrs ago compared to a guy who you one look cannot decide he is a straight or a gay. Imagine, a guy carrying a tote bag holding hand with a damn chio girl and a guy who doesnt carry a bag or a backpack holding hand with a girl? Which one you think the image is better? The "SISTER" image or the COUPLE image? Wahaha!! I cant believe it man. I can see that the Dragon girls especially like this type of "guys??", are the girls trying to find companion of a girl-friend instead of a boyfriend? I am not trying to be mean, but this is what is happening these days. No offence to the gay community! :)
Today
Today my MSN nick writes, "My cadet will always be my cadet! Friend! Period! Understand! I hope!! Haiz~". Because recently got something very happening in my corp. So I would like to make it straight to whichever cadets that are online. Dont wish to explain, the message is clear. Except for the I hope.. Because I need to choose my path. Hmm~ Actually today blog is just things that I wanna talk about lah, nothing special except the groaning part. Got that feel because jing ying was discussing with me "Being loved is better or loving others is better". So I suddenly got the feel to write, because I still got matter on hand that I need to settle. Think as i write lah..
Ok.. I consulted Chen Yie for a fee or $100(hehe!!). Her problem with the woman she puts it. I taught her how to think further, Metacognition. How to think further than what the situation may seems like. Ok. She have "grown up" a little tiny minute bit la, she understands the way I always think of things. I used the Newton kana hit by apple which he discover gravity theory to explain:
""the apple hit him and he would think that the apple is stupid why hit him
then if he think further, he will ask himself why did apple drop
because of gravity or what
you get the point?""
Simple example can mean great things, so nothing is as simple as it seems. Always think deep but dont get to the think too much lane or else you will be wasting your brain juice. =) I love Metacognition. Like I say in my title of my blog, Metacognition can bring you to Ultimate Ownage or Fallen Despair. Well! End here.. Sleep..
and so He speaks
