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Saturday, January 07, 2006
Twenty Five Time
Never go school today. Busy doing my notes for the cadets. Doing respiratory system with them tommorrow 7/1/06. Got 3 hrs to teach them everything or something about respiratory system. Quite hard for me to teach. I have to upgrade myself to a trainer's trainer when i am a trainee in NYP. Haha.. What a big leap! Well! It is possible, it takes a little more time when no one can guide you along as you learn. I need to die die understand the system. It is actually a commitment. i always believe that when you have a commitment to something, you can overcome shit and hell to do it. That's why I am an officer. A trainer of almost any teachable subject in SJ. There is no excuse that you have no time or your exam is coming or what so ever. The bottomline is, you have no capabilities. Then after that may need to help Ong with transportation but i think he and CK can handle. Then footdrill, should need to help Ah Leow. Then soccer, hope Shaful can make it la. Dont gabra up the only hour of training each week. Sometimes it takes a toll on yourself when you are superior, you can do anything, but you dont have the energy to do everything. Sianz~ Hope people can grow up and learn something by themselves. When too much shit accumalate somewhere, it will either explode or collapse no matter how strong the foundation. Hope this day dont happen, or else... My God know!
I really stand by the sentence i came up last month. "Change is a must and sacrifice is a requisite". This time round, i sacrificed my classmates, my relation with them, forgo the leadership in class. I did not want to get into class politics again, because like i said many times, they are not worth my time and effort. So i might as well leave them out in my care zone, and let them bite each other to death. Muahaha.. Fun to see a bunch of idiots and kids trying to outfight each other when both side are inferior piece of crap. Actually I wanted to put down Judo also, but after going for the training this wed. I decided to stay and get my green belt first, but not with the club president. He is old and cant see well, cant think well and obsessed/possesed/toyed/controlled by his gf. Nowdays i think i prefer to stand one side and laugh rather than being angry or churned into conflicts. It is not laugh, it is more of a mocking or aka "ke xiao". My blog have become more sarcastic and boastful these three entries, screwing everyone upside down, inside out. And putting myself on the matured and superior side of everthing. Not that i enjoy it, it is just that they "kiam meh", and i need to pour out from my vastless sea of thoughts.
Anyway, just came back from K-box with Cliff. Trained quite alot of songs, but mostly gay voiced like JJ song. SO hard because i am low singer. Still ok la. Then came one song which i like or hate the most "Wo De Cuo". Reminds me of something that i did that was wrong these 2 years. Then when i came online, the person whom i wanted to see appeared online. Is it coincidence? Or the things above playing a trick on me? Haha.. Pain! Can you feel it? Ok. Need to vet through the notes i prepare again before i sleep. Nitez blog~ Nitez to you too PK..
and so He speaks
