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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Sixty One Time
Stayed at home today.. Never go out. Watch FMA. Actually was meeting wei shan for lunch, then i was waiting for her call. because she always late late wake up. Then i 1pm+ msg her, then she reply say eat liao. And she thought i just woke up. Haha.. Assumption.. Shall talk about it later.. So she assume that i wake up late, and i assume that she will wake up late also. So in the end we never eat lunch together. So we settled to have lunch tommorrow. So i went lot 1 buy KFC. Haha.. Even though i am sick i still eat KFC. Power right!! Enjoy it because very long never eat liao.. Should be since start sch never eat le.. If not wrong the last time ate was with ah leow and liwen to discuss training program stuff. After makan, go sleep. Very tired. Wake up around 7pm. Then eat dinner. Then go see doctor. Did not want to see doctor but sick so long liao. Getting more frail. Then the doctor was talking and talking.. Then he take my BP. To my surprise, it was getting higher. 140/80. Haiz~ Remember last year or two years ago it was 130/80. Now getting higher. What i was not really happy about what the doctor said is that, he said it was normal for ppl my size. My foot!! It is consider high lor.. What kind of doctor is that... He thought i noob can cheat me, but he forgot what course i studying and how many ppl BP i have taken before. Anyway, dont always trust doctor's advice. Their title big only.. Some are hollow in the inside just like the ass hole bio holy shit noob so called lecturer. Took my med and the counter person was explaining to me when to take what when then package CLEARLY wrote 6hrly and 3 times a day. It cost $36. Haha.. Then when walking home, i told my mother why i dont like to see doctor.
The more med you eat, the higher the chances your body will resist the effects of the med. Which means that by the time you are old, your dosage of med may be higher or maybe the med dont even work on you anymore. That is one of the reason why i dont like to go see doc and eat med. Second reason. Western medicine are stupid. Yes! The reason why there is some many side effects of med is because med are not made to act on a certain part of the system. eg. cough mixture sometimes will cause drowsiness. It is because the med also acts on your CNS and other system. That's why it makes you drowsy. That's why med are stupid. I dont really trust western med even though i study nursing. Third reason. Since western medicine doesnt act on the specific system, it also affect the good cells in your body. And since it affect the good cells, it makes your body weaker after the illness is gone. Dont that makes your body even more prone to getting infection etc.. Whereas Chinese med may take a longer time to treat, but it also strengthen the body during the process.
I was talking about assumption just now. I realise that many ppl are getting on with their life with assumptions. Maybe you dont realise it but it is true. You thought that the person will behave this way, but it turn out that he behave another. You thought this person was small and cute so she/he willl be very friendly, but it turns out that the person is rotten in the inside. You thought this person was big so she/he is physically or emotionally stronger than anyone but it turns out that he/she is weak internally/externally. You thought the person keep staring at you because she/he likes you, but maybe he/she thinks that you look like an ET or a freak. You thought that the guy/gal who always likes to stick around you loves you, but actually he/she loves your best friend, you were merely a connection/stepping stone/lightbulb or a mere extra. See the point? We live in a world of assumption. "I think that guy like you", "I guess that she will be wearing mini skirt", "Your body language was implying that you were seducing him" etc...
Was talking to a kid on MSN just now. She was saying she dont want to help ppl now because she always gets herself into deep shit when helping others. Haha.. i realise that it is like me. Always helping ppl and sometimes bringing trouble to myself. Then i was telling her this was part of the growing up process. And i also reach her stage of thinking before, scared to help ppl because it always bring shit to yourself. I think she dont understand it or choose not to believe it la. So i think i shall not tell kids so much truth next time. They are not mentally prepared to accept things that are so devastating yet so true in everybody's life. eg. The world is round. Haha.. It can be truth like how western med works or is jesus virgin etc.. Like i always say, " The truth hurts".
Anyway, I AM VERY HAPPY TODAY. The med is starting to take effect now. Slp time.
Nitez to you~
ps. The truth hurts. Sometimes I really hate my intelligence.
and so He speaks
