The Next Big Thing
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the lonely story
Friday, August 31, 2007
Two Hundred Thirteen Time
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Change
Let's talk about yesterday. hahaa.
Went SJ in the morning, thought aisuan, xinyan and yan hsiang will be there. So I went down see see. Reached at 8am and then later realised yan hsiang didn't turn up. hmm.
As I stood upon the cement railings outside SJ room and watched the kids train (footdrill), I imagined if I wasn't around that morning. Only aisuan and xinyan will be there. Once in a while, certain degree of unhappiness will be set upon. The air is still, the atmosphere seemed so different. Can anyone revive those days? Days passed by and things really changed, so rapidly that I didn't managed to catch a breather. I missed the days where SJ trainings are noisy, every second filled with excitement, joy and gutso. When will it be when mah, ong, ken, me, aisuan and derrick meet again in SJ? nobody knows. We lead our own lives, we walked many unfamiliar paths, surrendering to the hands of destiny.
But the days gone are never to be forgotten, they're to be cherished.
I begin to think of what the future holds; for everyone.
From CK blog. The post that made me sad 2 weeks ago.
Was blog viewing again. Then saw it again. Might as well post it here.
The truth hurts!
泪血
泪为谁而泣 泪为何而落
血为谁而淌 血为何而洒
泪为挚爱泣 泪为喜悦落
血为情字淌 血为家园洒
The poem I wrote after reading his post.
KSJ Huat Ar!
and so He speaks
Sunday, August 26, 2007
Two Hundred Twelve Time
我要快乐
张惠妹
又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨我早应该割舍
我要快乐哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的全都是假的
我的决定是对的
This song is nice.
你不爱我
康康
习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝
这一次至少是我先说离别
有一些痛楚看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配为你再狼狈
你不爱我你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配和命运作对
你不爱我你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是那后备
康晋荣-我的家庭
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配为你再狼狈
你不爱我你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配和命运作对
你不爱我你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是那后备
康晋荣-我的家庭
呵……
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配为你再狼狈
你不爱我你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配和命运作对
你不爱我你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是那后备
wo…
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是那后备
This song also nice.
Let's talk about the topics that i listed days ago.
Who will guard the guards?
This sentence is taken out from one of the book that the DaVinci Code author wrote. If you really ponder about this sentence, you will find that it make sense. In your home, your parents will protect from any dangers. The police will then protect the citizens. If the police cmi, the military will cover up. If the military cmi, then there will be foreigners to protect us. If the foreign power cmi, the whole world will protect each other. Now comes the question, if the world citizens cant protect themselves, then who will? You send signal to outer space hoping for aliens to help you?
Kind of sound ridiculous by exagerrating it. But is kind of true.
If you protect your love one, who will protect you.
有人默默的在守护着你
Angel Lover
Taken from that tw show title. Job of angel lover is to bring joy to a person when she's down.
At some places, at some time, at some moment, someone will need a shoulder to lean on, or maybe just a person to talk to. Dunno how this phenomenon happen. Everyone knows that when someone is lonely or sad, the thing they need most is for another person to talk to them or listen to them talk. Recently, it did happen on me. Thrice in 3 months time. Its kind of strange, because they werent really close to me. And it took place during casual talks. The latest one was one of my sec sch person. I was talking about poly stuff, and it stir up some feelings in her. Suddenly she started to blaspheme poly girls, how bitchy they are, stealing ppl bf etc... Then finally she started to say that her bf for 5years broke up with her because that guy got to know another poly girl recently.
Or maybe i am too use to ppl replying me short answers like Yes, No, Why, Ok. So when others converse more with me, it becomes odd. Maybe ba.
Shall talk about office politics some other time. Let's code something written by a famous person.
"In the office, there is no good or evil person. Everyone belongs to a different camp serving different lord."
My mother was talking to me about her ideal retirement. She wants to retire early amd spend her time doing volunteer works. Then she adds, in chinese, "I hope my son can be a successful person, make more money so I can retire early." Can you imagine the impact after hearing this. A mother's wish. And I'm the only son.
If i become a nurse and follow the standard career path, it can keep you alive. But you wont fa da.
I shall see what vocation I get in the army. If i can upgrade Pes, and if i can get into command sch, i will consider a soldier's life. If my Pes dont get upgraded, I will see no point in pursuing a soldier's life.
My aim is still OCS.
and so He speaks
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Two Hundred Eleven Time
Let's jot down the things that i wanna blog about. ALways too tired to blog.
Who will guard the guards
Angel Lover
Office politics
忠vs爱
寄没有地址的信
花心大萝卜
Should be these few topics.
and so He speaks
Sunday, August 19, 2007
Two Hundred Ten Time
Backed. Work really get tiring. Sunday is really the only day to rest. The other days, when i get back from work, cant do much things. Too tired. The only things that can be done is only go msn talk, visit blogs, watch tv.
Friday
Kuishin Bo day. Met up with jessica at city hall. Then waited for chee yan. She's late(as always). Her two friends are also here to join us. TMD! Haha.. Its not what you think. It stands for The Min(g) Duo, Wei ming and Chun Min. Then we walked towards suntec. Went to convention center first to meet up with TTL. Chee yan passed him her home made cake. Then we continue to suntec. Saw sarah as we were walking out of convention. So the party of 6 were all here. Liang Nv Trios and Liang Zai Trios. Haha..
Reached Kuishin Bo. Nice environment. Nice food. The crab is so fascinating. Never eaten such a big crab before. Even though its only the legs, but its still WOW! Someone commented i was a 'sua ku'. -__-
After eating, we set off back to meet jieying. She just finish work. So we saw her at citylink mall. It was damn crowded. Apparently, there was a firework display there. The crowd is a little smaller than what i saw during NYE. So its all stuffy in there. We also met up serena. SERENA SERENA SERENA! Hahaha.. SO we took group photos, in front of so many ppl. Then we crawled our way to the MRT.
Happy Birthday 21st Yeung Chee Yan!
Sat
Today work half day. Today's work relax. Because the person i am under is not here. So the previous day she said when i came today, i can choose what i want to do. So i sorted the attachments into diff dept, officers. Then helped out with the application stuff.
After work, went to army market to get ziploc bags for ong. His usage of ziploc bags is zzZZzzZZzz.. Rich ar! Hahaha.. Ming Long was also around. Got a ride from him to go ECP. On the highway, we miss the ECP entrance because this big truck was in our way. So we travelled to Katong to make a U turn. Again, we made the wrong turn. Instead of doing a left turn which read "City ECP", we made a right turn which brings us to Telok Kurau. But we still manage to U turn and got into the right track. I kept telling him dont anyhow turn now. Haha.. BUT, once we reach the ECP small road, we made the wrong turn again. Wahahaha.. We went right instead of left. So we travelled to the end of ECP then realise its the wrong way. So U turn yet again. Then he dropped me off at the bicycle station.
So coincidentally, the kids were also there to return the bikes. It must have been fate. Hahaha.. Then followed the program and walked around and see them play game. Bus-ed back to sch. Listen to the songs in my phone, then aisuan come disturb with her hp.. Hahaha.. Opps!
Reached sch. They had debrief and prize presentation. Then the kids clean up the mess tins and pails and etc. Left sch around 7.
Met with the kopi gang at usual place. We went for late dinner. The usual food. Then same sat at sing post to talk and eat. Talks of field camps. Haha.. Walked home with wei jian and soon kueh.
Mah came over at 2am. zzZZzz.. After his firework date. Then he brought his PHD over. He archived all the pics and videos of the corp since 2002. He also got videos from jerilyn dad. Its the Folkdance Night videos. Yup! Aka Cultural Fiesta Night now. So we were reminiscing of the old times when we were sec 3. Of course i saw myself inside dancing. Haha.. Then after watching the videos, we looked at the pictures. Its so nice. When everyone was young. The hairstyle. The face. The size. Hahaha.. Great to keep pics.
泪血
泪为谁而泣 泪为何而落
泪为挚爱泣 泪为喜悦落
血为谁而淌 血为何而洒
血为情字淌 血为家园洒
and so He speaks
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
Two Hundred Nine Time
Back. Start working already. Work is not heavy. Quite simple. Just filing. More filing. And more filing. zzZZzzZzz.. I dont remember that i like to do filing. Pri sch never file. Sec sch anyhow file. Poly no need file. But now, other then filing, i still have to stack all the files nicely and make sure it doesnt topple over. And the stacks can go as high as my stomach level. And one will have 6 stacks of those, plus a few piles on the table, a few piles on the shelf. Takes around 4hrs to clear one room. Time passes quickly.
Work is so tiring. That i dont feel like updating. Next time when i'm still alive, i shall update.
and so He speaks
Thursday, August 02, 2007
Two Hundred Eight Time
Its 2am in the morning. I was already lying on bed. But i was thinking of what my next blog post would be. So the more i think, the more i want to things are generated. zzZZzzZZzz.. That's the bad thing when your brain only works the best before you want to sleep. So here i am to post.
I was thinking about secondary school times. I was also thinking about friends. Then i remembered that there's a trend during my lower sec time.
I still remember during lower sec, and even during upper primary, girls always like to have a nice book. Then the girls will pass to some of their friends to fill in their particulars, where they stay, when is their birthday, what is their favourite actors(i remember singers wasnt so hot during that time). Then the friends will take kinds of coloured pens, then write nice nice into the book.
I remember very particularly one of the section, you need to fill in your friends. Its listed like your best friend, good friend, friend. Then i remember in sec 2, i saw someone's profile which writes, 100% susan, 90% mary, jane, 80% ivy, margaret etc... So damn funny la! You can actually list how much you friend the person by dividing them into percentage. Thinking back, its quite dumb.
Dunno the kids of this generation do this anot. I dont think have. Now everything also do on computer, do online. Want to see the person's profile just go around Friendster click around. Last time really damn lok kok. Everything also do manually. Take ppl's phone number also need to bring phonebook to sch then write down. And its not hp, its home number.. Hahaha..
Then i remember last time when want to go out with friends, always need to call at night then confirm everything. Then die die must stick to that time, cannot late. If you not feeling well on that day, die also must call your friend early in the morning, or else you need to drag yourself to meet him to cancel outing.
Nowdays, everyone seems to have a hp each. Some even have two or three. Then want to go out just mass msg, dont even need to call. Just sms the time, venue, do what then on liao. So convenient right.. BUT, problems start to occur. Ppl tend to be late when going out. Late 10-15min is still consider late. Worse still, some ppl can be as late as 1-2hrs. Late liao, just msg "Sorry! Just wake up! Give me 30 min!". Then in the end, wait for them for more than 1hr. Wow! See what technology had done to us. Last time, no matter what happened, ppl will stick to the time that they set, because they know if they are late, the friend might just go off alone or go home.
Enough of talking about the past. Haha.. Or else next time nothing to rumble about. I was also thinking about friends.
How do you really define friends? Those ppl that you only say hi or smile to are considered friends? Those that only look you up when they need something are also considered friends? Last time, i thought i had many friends. Most are those hi bye type, some are those are your project mates, some are those who are in the same CCA as you.
SO do you consider them all friends? Or how do you define friends? Those that remember your birthday are your friends? Those that give you presents are friends? Those that send goodnight/friends msg to you are friends? Those who have been with you during your high and low time in lives are friends? Those that only treat you nicely when you are of value to them?
To me, those who have been with you through your darkest and finest hours are called friends. So as i count, the friends that i have dont even need my toes to count. Ten fingers also still have discount.
I admit I am a horrible friend. I swear I am one. I can be very annoying. I can be super arrogant. I can be very sarcastic. I dont even remember all my friends birthday. So do i qualify to be a friend?
How to recognize friends.. Hmmm.. In my style, i speak with sarcasm. So those who cannot tahan sarcasm, those who received my sarcasm and then goes "tsk" are definitely not friend. If you cannot tahan the bad side of that person, then you can jolly well forget that person. Isnt this way better? You show your bad side to ppl, then let them discover your good points by themselves. It is definitely better than ppl who always show their good side to you, then when you turn around they backstab you, use all kinds of rumour to defame you. Leave backstabbing to politicians and office workers, they can whack each other as hard as they like.
Hmmm.. Was also thinking. Are ppl becoming more pragmatic? For eg in MSN, you say hi to someone, then you ask them what they doing. Then after that you dont ask any more question, then they nudge and ask you why you ask. Its rather annoying to me. Sometimes, you really want to ask those ppl you know, how they are now, what they doing now. Then some might think you need a favour from them, or simply say that you bo liao. It makes you feel that the world is such a cold place. Some of you might think that, "so what if you know how i am now?". This kind of mentality is so ass.
Its about the humanistic side of life, dunno how to say la. Maybe give an example. Take for example i go back to corp and help out. Its not for CCA point, its not to action and tell ppl that "Hey! I'm a SJ Officer!". Over these past 3 years plus, ppl have asked me, "You go help got CCA point anot? Then got money anot?" Then when i say no, they would go like "Stupid! Go back no money, no CCA points. Go back for what." Yes! That is what ppl have said to me. It sounds super discouraging, but i persevered. I know I am doing it for a good cause. Its not for fame or whatever desires, its purely for the interest, passion, love, loyalty. So what if i got more certs, trophy of appreciation than other ppl, its still biodegradable afterall. One day it will still rust and termites will eat them. The other ppl will never know how to lead a group of ppl, they will never know how to hold correct meetings, they will never know how to conduct a lesson, they will not know how to plan and conduct trainings. One thing they surely wont have, they will never have the joy, comradeship, fun, knowledge that I have gained.
So i still have the last laugh! :D
and so He speaks
